Life in and out of college

Good afternoon to all,

I know it’s been a while since I have posted anything on my blog, but as I stated previously there has been a lot of changes not only in my personal life but now in my new Career girl style.

Recently I have found myself graduating college and moving into the workforce as a constructive and active citizen. Yet even though I expected this to happen I have been disillusioned and disappointed, a feeling that I didn’t expect to feel once I received a Baccalaureate degree. Yet it still lingered with me.

My goals, that I had wanted to accomplish has been set back due to college loans, my first “real job” being a soul-crusher, finding my sense of self that I lost in that time in college. I know it sounds weird because that’s when you’re expected to find yourself. Somehow, I found myself fighting to keep my individuality and progressing with so much work and stress on my shoulders.  

Let’s start with my experience in college: my experience went like this;

Freshman- I was a fresh face, excited and ready to take on the world I had a little part time job in where I worked the weekends and some afternoons, while I went to class in the mornings. I still worked out and that’s when I meet my current boyfriend and we have been together since then. Immediately as I started I notice this division between those who were forced to be there and those who wanted to be there. But overall wasn’t much different than high school except for the heighten sense of maturity and responsibility. 

Sophomore year-  At this point things got harder those who were there because of mommy & daddy were dying out with just a few left in each class. The work because harder and more frequent at this point I took afternoon classes and worked all weekend starting Friday ending Sunday night. I still had time to spend with my boyfriend and it was starting to get to a point where I had no time for the gym or friends. Also, my dressing habits began to change I Kind gave myself a uniform of black tights from H&M or Forever21 and a white or black T-shirt with a pair of blue/black Jordan’s (which was the last time I owned Jordan’s to be honest).

Junior year- Now let’s talk about a hot mess, at that point one of my family members became sick and I started a new job called note-taking and I still had my retail job at least for the first semester. So, at that point the majority of all my basic requirements were completed and I was taking classes only in my major which was crazy. Not to mention I had to be in and out of the hospital for that family member (whom now is fine, Thank the heavens). I had no choice but to do it since I’m one of the few English/ Spanish translators in my family, making me the center of all things that happen.  At that point I was so stressed and broken down not just physically because of all he works but mentally because of all the family stress that I almost dropped out of college but luckily, I sought out a counselor. Fortunately, my family member recovered and I was able to pass my classes but my grades suffered.  At the second half I quit my retail job and started to work inside the school, my paycheck deeply suffered but my sanity returned and I was able to raise up my grades more at that point with 2 jobs and the hardest of classes behind me. I also received my associates degree at that time.

Senior year: At this time, I took 2 summer classes to be able to graduate on time, it was hot annoying and killed off my summer but I did what had to be done.

In my senior year, I was getting worried about what my life had instore for me. I knew I hadn’t had any internships because honestly, I couldn’t afford to work for free, I had to work just to have a MetroCard to travel (New York is not easy). I started looking for jobs that would hire me once I was out, I found many options but they all need a Baccalaureate degree which I didn’t have yet. At that point I had no free time all my time went to homework and work my boyfriend was very understanding and he never hassled me about how much I was working but he took care of me as best as he could. At the last semester, I was literally traveling between work classes work and other work and lastly homework. I wouldn’t get home till 11pm if not 12 on some days. At that point one of the directors asked me if I was interested in staying in the College and working as in admin and I of course said yes. I went through with the interview process and before I even graduated, I was working. Given it was only a part- time position but I actually felt relieved to have it. I manage to graduate and work my way up.

Now the disappointments:

It’s hard to be able to move out, I thought that my boyfriend and I could do it together, but I realized he wasn’t ever going to help me I needed to do things on my own. And it’s so hard to even get a room nerveless an apartment so, that didn’t work out. Loans are still around and working out to lose weight has been a rough road. Please a new job that doesn’t involve the college. But there is no such thing as giving up in my world.

The New hope.

Now I hope that my experiences will make great stories to entertain and help you through this world that can be so harsh and unforgiving. Please Look out for more little segments like this coming out soon.

Thank You.