Good
afternoon to all,
I know it’s been a while since I have
posted anything on my blog, but as I stated previously there has been a lot of
changes not only in my personal life but now in my new Career girl style.
Recently I have found myself graduating
college and moving into the workforce as a constructive and active citizen. Yet
even though I expected this to happen I have been disillusioned and
disappointed, a feeling that I didn’t expect to feel once I received a
Baccalaureate degree. Yet it still lingered with me.
My goals, that I had wanted to accomplish
has been set back due to college loans, my first “real job” being a
soul-crusher, finding my sense of self that I lost in that time in college. I
know it sounds weird because that’s when you’re expected to find yourself.
Somehow, I found myself fighting to keep my individuality and progressing with
so much work and stress on my shoulders.
Let’s start with my experience in college:
my experience went like this;
Freshman-
I was a fresh face, excited and ready to take on the world I had a little part
time job in where I worked the weekends and some afternoons, while I went to
class in the mornings. I still worked out and that’s when I meet my current
boyfriend and we have been together since then. Immediately as I started I
notice this division between those who were forced to be there and those who
wanted to be there. But overall wasn’t much different than high school except
for the heighten sense of maturity and responsibility.
Sophomore year- At this point things got harder those who
were there because of mommy & daddy were dying out with just a few left in
each class. The work because harder and more frequent at this point I took
afternoon classes and worked all weekend starting Friday ending Sunday night. I
still had time to spend with my boyfriend and it was starting to get to a point
where I had no time for the gym or friends. Also, my dressing habits began to
change I Kind gave myself a uniform of black tights from H&M or Forever21
and a white or black T-shirt with a pair of blue/black Jordan’s (which was the
last time I owned Jordan’s to be honest).
Junior year- Now let’s talk about a hot
mess, at that point one of my family members became sick and I started a new
job called note-taking and I still had my retail job at least for the first
semester. So, at that point the majority of all my basic requirements were
completed and I was taking classes only in my major which was crazy. Not to
mention I had to be in and out of the hospital for that family member (whom now
is fine, Thank the heavens). I had no choice but to do it since I’m one of the
few English/ Spanish translators in my family, making me the center of all
things that happen. At that point I was
so stressed and broken down not just physically because of all he works but
mentally because of all the family stress that I almost dropped out of college
but luckily, I sought out a counselor. Fortunately, my family member recovered
and I was able to pass my classes but my grades suffered. At the second half I quit my retail job and
started to work inside the school, my paycheck deeply suffered but my sanity
returned and I was able to raise up my grades more at that point with 2 jobs
and the hardest of classes behind me. I also received my associates degree at
that time.
Senior year: At this time, I took 2 summer
classes to be able to graduate on time, it was hot annoying and killed off my
summer but I did what had to be done.
In
my senior year, I was getting worried about what my life had instore for me. I
knew I hadn’t had any internships because honestly, I couldn’t afford to work
for free, I had to work just to have a MetroCard to travel (New York is not
easy). I started looking for jobs that would hire me once I was out, I found
many options but they all need a Baccalaureate degree which I didn’t have yet.
At that point I had no free time all my time went to homework and work my
boyfriend was very understanding and he never hassled me about how much I was
working but he took care of me as best as he could. At the last semester, I was
literally traveling between work classes work and other work and lastly
homework. I wouldn’t get home till 11pm if not 12 on some days. At that point
one of the directors asked me if I was interested in staying in the College and
working as in admin and I of course said yes. I went through with the interview
process and before I even graduated, I was working. Given it was only a part-
time position but I actually felt relieved to have it. I manage to graduate and
work my way up.
Now
the disappointments:
It’s hard to be able to move out, I
thought that my boyfriend and I could do it together, but I realized he wasn’t
ever going to help me I needed to do things on my own. And it’s so hard to even
get a room nerveless an apartment so, that didn’t work out. Loans are still
around and working out to lose weight has been a rough road. Please a new job
that doesn’t involve the college. But there is no such thing as giving up in my
world.
The New hope.
Now
I hope that my experiences will make great stories to entertain and help you
through this world that can be so harsh and unforgiving. Please Look out for
more little segments like this coming out soon.
Thank
You.